F r e e d o m

Dear You,

Well well well, how long has it been since I last wrote... a bit too long I guess, since I intended to write each and every single day of my life... Oh well, better late than never.

You know, my head has been working very very very hard... No, I am not doing budgeting anymore. My dear friend Patricia will have to do that wkwkwkwkwk Good luck, my darling.

No, I'm thinking of quitting my day job and be a full time mom. Well, not full time maybe... I'd be lying to my dear audience. I want to work at home. There I said it... I WANT TO WORK AT HOME!!! and now the whole world will know. Yeah rite, as if everyone in this dying planet is reading my blog. You wiiiiiiisssshhh, giiiirl!!!

As I sat on my carseat, not minding the honks and shouting surrounding the traffic jam along Jakarta road, my mind travels fast on horse power... I don't want to do this anymore... I don't want to be chasing that punch card machine that seems to be laughing at me everytime the long needle almost hits twelve as the small brother awaits at the number 9. Hey, I tried my best ok... Gimme a break, it's a 2 hour drive, and I'm sleepy so shut up!!

Then on my desk, doing what's listed on my job description. Working like a zombie... staring and working on the keyboard like a pro, while my head is saying "sleepy hungry bored... sleepy hungry bored". Gosh, I needed to wait noon so that I can check on my Facebook (See the pattern, the real boss in a company is the CLOCK!!). Then after one hour of "break" here comes another long round of zombying around again until 5 or 6 pm. I walked passed a row of people still head to head with a flat screen. I strode and strolled, avoiding the stares of co-workers as if saying "Going home already??" well I wish I could shout at them "What's the matter, you got problems at home and you're hiding your sorry asses here???"... God, do I really need to do this for the rest of my life?? Can't you see the wrinkles around my eyes... it's pathetic... sobs...

Can't I just stay at home, dressed for success with m favorite t-shirt and shorts. Supervising my toddlers with tea in my hands and my feet on the table?? Can't I freely browse the internet to the places that I want to visit... I just want to look at the clock just to check if it was time to make a decent meal for moi and my kids... Go to a movie if I want to...

I want to make money while still doing all the above... Why do you think they invented internet?? So that you don't have to leave home, people!! I want to be free to work or to play. Freedom, what a word... F r e e d o m... repeat after me... F r e e d o m... Do you feel a bit a freedom just by saying it?? Try again, mean it this time... You will know what I mean...

Nite nite all,
ndy - still wearing her business clothes... can I burn them??