Despair... that's what I feel rite now as someone I deeply care start to stumble and fall. I did try to held her up, I did try to tell her that I got her back, and I did try my best to keep her hold her head high. Yet, she still chose to go, leaving me there, standing, completely numb and feeling really really really sad.
It's not that I am sad cuz she left me... no, if she didn't need me anymore, so be it... it's just that I'm sad that she stopped fighting for her own happiness and chose to do it on her own, while she knows that I am here to support her...
People struggle with their own problems, I see that on a daily basis. But to plan with no backup, is no planning at all. Choose wisely on what you do. Believe strongly on what you hold on to, fight for it, focus till you get what you targeted in the first place.
I have made decisions that I have not been proud of, that I admit. But I live by it, I cope with it and I move on. Instead of being mad, furious at it, I swallow it like a bitter pill. The taste will eventually pass away with a gulp of water, and everything will be just fine. Same goes with problems in life. Face it, go thru it and move on.
Life is just chapter after chapter of stories. Decide what kind of theme you want it to be... Comedy or tragedy. I have made my choice, and I am fighting for it. Are you?
